asked uni that day. "is it harder being the girl or guy in a relationship?"

well, we talked about what girls and guys want in a relationship.and how girls are the ones doing so much thinking all the time and end up feeling so insecure about everything.and girls (at least the common consensus strike by me and uni), expect very simple things in a relationship.we dun ask for anything much, we just need to be constantly reminded that he cares and thats kinda sufficient..

whenever i talked to someone about getting attached, the same things come to my mind.it seems like to me, being attached is nice just because its real nice knowing someone is there for you, and that someone cares alot about you, and that you mean alot to someone..

ahh.im addicted to playing pool on my com.haha..ill find some time to bake more cookies and brownies =)

yay the brownies and cookies were nice after all =)even bing said the cookie rocked.gave bing the big big one..and he tried abit of the brownie too.hehh..hope you really like them too =)

hmm was talking to uni today at her house.nice long talk with her after so long =) hope i did help in some way after all. oh we kinda analysed the predicament of being in a relationship and the general behaviour of guys.haha..which all actually did make sense..

yay gonna watch badminton tmr.promised chuansheng that i'll go watch him play someday..so since its finals already =) last day of sch tmr..yeah i need to change my going-school-habits..change for the better obviously..argghh..sorry classmates, for all my ponnings..(ok whatever huimin, still gonna pon to watch badminton anyway, wthh)

im at uni's house now.just finished baking brownies and cookies.heh a surprise for him for our one month.we ate alot of the brownie and it rocks..esp when it was hot..wah damn damn nice..hope the cookies turn out okay, its in the oven baking now..

me and uni supposed to be making sth for iris now.heh..but shes slacking so im slacking too..anyway, the ruggers WON!!!!!!!!! congrats guys!!so proud of them.esp my classmates, joelleong and joellouis..they all cried after the match..it was really damn shiok to watch them play.and win ac..

gonna go down to pp later to give him the brownies and cookies.he doesnt know im going down =) oh thanks to uni for her kitchen and oven and her maid's help..and thanks to clara too..clara's so cute..heh..

hmm long day at sch today.i survived it without ponning any of it!! had a nice time crapping and talking to jue in history lect.funny how we can be in same sch but i still miss her all the same.it was like once i stepped into lt2 today, i suddenly had the urge to look for her..and found her looking at me, and we started our usual only-we-can-understand sign language across the lt..then i went to sit with her =) glad i did.

cheng tju came to class and kinda lectured our class today..on our behaviour and attitude and attendance etc..hmm some upsetting stuff happened also.like some upsetting stuff he said.oh and stupid retro babe in econs today screwed me.asked me to sit at the front and when i asked nicely whether i could move after i finished my drq, she refused.bitch la..still asked me to sit properly.was damn pissed off.oh! i didnt get last in class like how i did for econs test.not like thats a great encouragement.

hmm kenneth came to sch today, to give his friends their birthday present.he wore firas's ri uniform.haha..so cute.his pants only falling off la..hmm then me and him went to macs to meet other classmates.then we went to bukit merah to get kayhian's bow.since its so near my house.had fun goofing around there.

today's such a screwed up day for my friends.heard bad news about tiff =( then poor jue =( and camy's kinda upset =( hai why why?suddenly all my good friends in some kinda trouble or down..hmphh..

tiff: hope you can read this if i dun see you around.no matter what happens, be strong and brave and we'll be here for you.if you need to talk to someone call me okay? im ever ready to cheer you up!really hope things turn out okay for you=) iloveyou!
camy: heyya dear!! cheer cheer up okay?? dun let things get to you and let it affect you so much.ultimately its how you handle it and tmr that matters.keep looking forward to better and more beatiful days ahead..dun let things get you down and keep that smile on k? you look so much sweeter with that frown overturned yeah? take care dear=)
jue: dun so fan2 about everything okay? if i had the chance, ill screw that stupid teacher for you man..like seriously wth lor!!but well, you dont think too much k dear? sometimes its not good to think too much, maybe follow your heart would be better.sounds cliche i know, but its so often said for a reason yeah? talk to me if you need to okay? love you love you love you so muchh =)my fellow telepathic twin =)

thank you very much, anonymous, but i dun need anyone to tell me what to do with my life or how and who i should spend my time with.

watched shrek 2 yesterday.quite funny and the picture animation is real good.like the first part when the prince charming went through the different climates to get to the princess..the scenery animation was realistic and so pretty.yep, then went with him to newton food centre to eat dinner..we ordered satay popiah and carrot cake.the food there seriously rocks man.and i cant wait for a chance to go there in a big group to eat seafood.sambal chilli stingray!!omgg..

stayed at home the whole of today trying to do work.started on my silas journal.funny how i found silas so so unreadable at the beginning but now ive finally started to appreciate george eliot's writing and the book.

one more week of school!!not really looking forward to the hols but well, not like im enjoying every part of school either.and i seriously want to get back my weight i had after dieting the last time.stupid laa called me skin and bones and starving huimin. sheeshh.but ive been eating so much recently.need to gradually cut down again..

yea just changed my earring for my cartilage ear piercing. luckily theres no infection this time round like the last time, and its amazing easy to handle it this time..i should have gotten a piercing higher up the ear la.but owells...need to wait for awhile more for my grandma to take in the fact i pierced my cartilage again before i get another ear piercing.heh=)

yeah and i did manage not ponning school so much this week k.and the first time i ponned this week was prac crit.and unfortunately got caught by booth.me weixian firas daryl.got screwed man..classmates also got sent out of class cos didnt complete the adlestrop poem.and then we were so so paranoid about seeing him to apologize to him but we eventually did la.owellss..

i need more moneyy!!heh thurs is coming.very soon =)

these two days have been real screwed days.it seems like the bad luck and shite never stops coming.one right after another.HAI

met up with hon and laa today!!oh man.i missed the both of them to bits.me hon and kenneth stoned around at esplanade waiting for laa to come to work.working at thai express at esplanade with her friends.how how fun..then we three ate there while laa served us and crapped with us.man..really miss those two girls..so glad i got to spend time with them today..

haha.its funny how all my friends have this common consensus about kenneth.haha..yeah my friends who dont know each other..they all say the same thing =)

havent been blogging much.cos my own com is spoilt.but now im using the other com at home..and whoever the jedi masters are.my tagboard has become like a sparring zone for them.HOW FUN.

hmm.slacked the first part of the day away.then went out with my cousins then left them to meet kenneth at toa payoh.bummed around and he was being crazy and kept saying i look like a toa payoh girl.wth =)hmm then came town with his two other friends and then went to cine to eat subway..mmm meatballs! mmm..choc chip cookies!!haha..yepp theb spent a nice evening with him=) then met up with my cousins at my 0ouse void deck and went home..

im gonna be more disciplned next week.no more ponning lessons =) run/do weights everyday =) eat breakfast and small snacks only =) go home and dun go out for first half of the week =) show more effort in getting work done =) and why the sudden change? self-guilt.grandma pissed.seriously pissed.and be guai so i can get to spend my time out.with you =)

just came back from hongyi's house awhile ago.hmm had a nice day today =) oh, phone's not with me.so call me at my house if theres anything urgent.or sms the other number that starts with 1..not the 92724274 one..

......i wanna spend the rest of my life with you~~~

i love 1A01E =)

bapok was being crazy today.asking real real stupid questions which are actually logical but questions that are deemed too redundant to answer.maybe cos such questions are not meant to be answered cos no matter how hard you search, there may not be an answer to it..questions that go "what if?"

somehow i got my answer to the question that has been weighing my mind down these few days..i went round asking pple and searching for the answer..and somehow (i dunno how), i suddenly got a peace of mind and ive decided ive found the answer.i'll stick to it.and i'll be the good girl im supposed to be.your good girl =)

sch was okay today.drq econs test was terrible.im starting to get really freaked out about getting retained and all..judging from how im performing in class for econs and maths, im really afraid mann..

1A01E rocks =)

nice happy =) =) =) day today..lets do stuff in chronological order.from morning when i woke up...

woke up late at 6.20am..decided to take a cab to sch..cabby driver was nice to talk to..haha..one of those friendly cabbys who enjoy their jobs..then reached sch for the pe rep briefing, then walked to jelita with tiff, wx and some other rgs and ri people for our duties..me and tiff both bought like ben and jerry's ice cream to eat..hair-able ice cream mann..then me wx and one rg girl and one ri guy sat at our station bus stop while talking crap and eating my ice cream..then the runners/joggers/walkers went by and then we went back to jelita to get chio plasters cos wx needed one to cover the "scratch" on his face..but there were no chio ones..just real normal ones =(

then went back to sch bummed around awhile then sat in hall to watch performances..and ewww ewww, wx and joellouis took like gay pics together, sitting down with joel's arms around wx and wx lying in his chest..eww ewww..haha.me and wx took a damn nice stick out tongue pic and we decided he looks the best when he doesnt smile and doesnt-dont-smile and just stick out tongue..heh so we came up with the crap that his i/c and card pics should all be stick out tongue..heh..joel's performace was really really nice..thanks to joel who had the sense to turn up the volume of the mic of the singer, and his pro guitar and melvin's pro drumming..damn damn good..and i missed hide and huson's dance again =(

hmm then kenneth came and we watched abit before we went ghim moh to eat cos he didnt even eat breakfast..came back to watch hongyi and the brainiest rafflesian thingy..was quite sian and i was falling asleep lilke how i would in lectures..heh..we went off then went to town with camy and lai to watch blood brothers..quite a rubbish no content show..pls dun watchh..hrmm then met up with tiff, then with chuin, then with ben clara and marns..ohh i pierced my cartilage!! haha hopefully no infection like the other time..hmm mrt to kembangan then tiff's nice mummy came fetch us all 6 back to her house..it was crazy and was all squeezed into the car..we took lots of pictures todayy..nice nice..i like pictures..i really really really really want a digicam.. or at least a camera phone with quite decent resolution and enough memory..wah lauu..damnit..i really wantt..im picture-crazy..

hmm had a huge hugeee pig-out at tiff's house..kenneth was like playing match up to him in eating..i had to match up to him whenever he eats one pizza..his sly ploy of downing me with three and a half slice of hawaiian pizza..then we had ben and jerry's..HAIRRRRR...damn damn damn damn damn damn nice..we were practically devouring them..haha.i was seducing marns under the table with my feet.heh..took lots of crazy pics..hope marns and tiff post them up soon..then went second floor to watch tv..marns and clara are nice nice nice nice =)..and tiff and chuin are such such darlings..i love girlfriends =]

went up to the roof with kenneth..the sky was BEAUTIFUL tonight..perfect view from tiff's roof..its damn damn nice..it was one of the rare times i get to see stars-filled sky..i really loved it ok..it was really beautiful..im in love with starry starry nights again..havent seen one in such a looong time..really loved it..everything was beautiful..today was a happy day =)

kenneth.tiff.chuin.marns.clara.ben.joel. [you guys made my day!]

i dont know why.why i did those things to you.
what went thru my mind..and i dont know why..
why i broke your heart in two.guess that i was blind..
baby how i wish you could forgive me just one more time..

ok its not psuedo confiscated anymore.its confiscated..

urgh.urgh.urgh.can today just hurry end?

hai, in a confused state..was supposed to go uni's house to make iris's present, but i cant go cos im not supposed to step out of the house today..hrmphh..im sorry uni..and cant go out today means the first day in a long time i never see kenneth..heh ended up waking up to eat breakfast then sleep and sleep until now..wah sleeping rocks..and dreaming rocks too..but reality sets in and i think i should start doing work..since tmr is ora and i plan to go out on monday too..

ora tmr.gotta wake up uber early to reach school at seven..have pe rep duties with weixian..stationing two super slackers as station masters at a station that is walking-few-steps distance to holland v without a teacher is like mistake of the century..haha..hope ora would be fun tmr =)

oh, my two phones have been psuedo confiscated by my grandma..she just brought it to work today while i was sleeping..but im quite sure i will get it back by today..sorry to whoever who tried to call me or sms me..

im tired.im tired.im tired.had to say it three times cos its true in 3 different aspects.im really tired..

yesterday was chorale concert..it was quite good =) then after the concert, wasted an hour dunno doing what with kenneth's friends..then when we were walking to find a place to eat, kenneth was trying to kick off his shoe to let someone catch or sth..then he kicked it off and guess where it landed..over the fence of a building..and of all buildings guess which building it has to be..the parliament house..well done kenneth..it was hilarious la..then we asked the rest to walk on first then we asked this policeman to help us la..waited for a long time then got the shoe back..hilarious hilarious man..but it was damn late after all the wasting time that i couldnt go eat dinner though i was famished..came home and was damn pissed off with my grandma..hai whatever la..was feeling so off that i didnt even eat anything though i was uber hungry when i got home..too tired also la..

hmm.school yesterday was fun even though it was a stupid 510 day..being the only arts class with 510 day on friday is damn stupid..wx and i were in library from after assembly until i was really hungry at about ten sth..then we went to ghim moh for nice nice breakfast..then came back to the library again to stone..wrote some stupid love poem in msword in the lib com..really full of shite..but yest was damn funny cos we were both really tired and wx was spouting alot of rubbish and being high cos he was so tired..couldnt stop laughing at him..doing stupid things like reading my sms and prank calling girls and reading my phonebook and laughing at people's names..i was playing with his phone and taking pics with it again..think we were damn high and laughed damn loud and were pissing pple off who were trying to study..haha.then went for some lessons and i skipped pe and walked to red house bus stop with ec to meet kenneth in town..

met quite alot of pple in town..the 1d-finish-school-at-1230-stoners, anna and jeannette etc..well some stupid things happened when i was with him..it was a high happy huimin at first cos school wasnt dreary like usual but then it changed..and it was really all my fault..im sorry i ignored you, and im sorry for my childishness..lets not let such stupid things happen again ok?there'll be a reminder of not to be so silly and childish again on my finger..

i didnt mean to fall in love with you..

lai's birthday today.well, turn up was good..camy's hard work finally paid off..they two are so sweet..and camy's so nice and sweet to lai..touched man..heh..so i rushed down in a cab after netball exco interviews today..ate three mouthfuls of lai's baked rice..and stupid wenkai now influenced everyone liao la..everyone calls me barbie now! idiot wenkai..

hmm then kenneth pei me go get my contacts but it was closed when we went there..hrmm kenneth was being abit crazy just now..haha..we changed like a thousand buses before we got to where we were supposed to..haha..hmm then he sent me home la..oh, he came into school today and i realised we kinda attracted alot of attention..haha intro-ed tiff and chuin to him..hmm then think some certain pple from a certain table in canteen were talking..

oh haha thu is a math day.haha..cos every thurs me and wx will just skip prac crit and sea hist lect..hmm stoned around in library with weixian today cos canteen jenny leong was there..just sat in library and talked cock for 2hr40min..we were trying to take self timer pic with his phone but failed terribly cos we wont be able to know whether the pic was taken cos there was no flash or indication..damn spastic la we two..

kevin: i hope you're alright and smile smile alrightt?take care dude..

lai: happy birthday lai!!!

aaron: happy birthday AAAron!!

i wont forget the way you kiss me
the feeling's so strong, its lasting for so long

another real short day at school, went for gp and econs then i was already let off.went to library with weixian to write his vcapt speech and my notes for seniors.haha.we were "spying" on some sneaky pairs of pple there too..damn funny..and yay i got a treat from weixian cos i helped him with his speech! and hes elected as vcapt for swimming unless ortega vetos it la..haha..anyhow im still getting my treat la =)haha and it was damn fun making our rj hot chicks list just now..

hmm todays match was so.URGHH..we were leading right from the start till the last 3 min..then they were three up..then we caught up just right before the last whistle..then game went into overtime..urgghhh feeling..yeah we lost in overtime..our last match together with our seniors.the seniors we respect the most..the seniors whom i think, can really play as a team..its the team that beat all odds to beat ij in finals..

hmm then me and meng took a cab down to sa to watch the rugby match..they won 26-3..damn funny! me and meng went to sit at the stands there..then after awhile, we realised alvin's mum was sitting behind us..and before that, we were kinda ranting away and im quite sure we said stuff about alvin..haha..so self jacked..meng felt like shooting herself mann..

then we cabbed down to fish and co glass house..not bad they havent even start eating when we arrived..had a good dinner..really nice and full..and then we played truth or dare there..damn spastic lorr..oh and kenneth was eating there too..with mark wang the fish and co freak and hongyi and another guy..my truth question was all about kenneth..ahha..made him say hi to my team and coach and teachers-in-charge..haha.damn funny..heh thanks for coming down to rescue me from my broke-ness and empty pocket..borrowed 25bucks from kenneth to pay for stuff..

im tiredd..run for netball exco? run for faction? revert to my old responsible disciplined and enthu self? hai i really dunno..dilema dilema..

school was fun and short today..at start of lit lesson stupid weixian was trying to use safety pin to cover up cos of the hole in his pants near his zip there..he still show me the hole..omg..then during the two lit lessons, we were talking about some stuff again..some usual stuff we talk about and his speech for running for vcapt..wx is seriously an airhead mann..with all his stupid suggestions for his speech i really wonder how he got in ri and rj..haha..ok la..maybe its not that bad, but still, some things he say are really so crap and superficial sometimes..the only time he talks serious is when talking about his polo to me..can see like his eyes light up and talking like a real person, with the occasional slip-offs when he gets too carried away praising himself..wah i got jacked in math lect today lor..copied the whole page of graphs twice.once for myself and once for wx..wah i felt like im a photocopying machine..damn jacked..

met kenneth then went trng then met him again..todays generally a happy day..heh..tmr's finals 3rd 4th placing against ajc..hai must win..puva was abit stressed out at trng today man..scolded pple for no reason..

tmr's one week =) how things turn out in the future and what we will be one month, two months, one year later. i wont think about such things already.things that arent really worth thinking about cos you'll never know what's in store for you and whats gonna happen in future..as they put it, im a lucky girl and i should just enjoy the times i have now..

sch's really dreary and its damn hard not to fall asleep in lectures..and things are not helping that i have to really buck up for econs or else i have to face the prospects of dropping econs..and facing alot of shite from that retro babe..three red crosses and i want to see your parents..screw off mann..

i will follow the dream with you..

i just realised how weird i can be sometimes.like how i can harden myself and be damn unfeeling..and next moment, i can be thinking more than what i should and feeling much more that i think too complicatedly..maybe this inconsistency creates the uncertainty in certain relationships with pple..maybe thats why im hard to understand sometimes..

i really dunno..maybe i just miss you..or maybe its candy overdose..

hmm.just came back from hongyi's birthday party awhile ago..his house is like..3 stops away from my house?haha..well, had a kickass time at his house..met kenneth at about 8 near my house then we went for breakfast before we headed down to vj funfair..it was frigging hot and seriously sweltering there..stayed around and saw quite a few friends there..then we me wenkai and headed to town to get hongyi's present..

it was quite fun at his house..goofed around and we played soccer and basketball..then watched matches and had bbq etc etc..there were quite alot of pple there and surprisingly not many pple got dunked..haha..me and him went off for awhile cos we went to watch a film fest movie at shaw towers..wenkai was being so damn asshole and kept calling me a barbie..whacked him alot todayy..him and his barbie and ken shite..oh!! kenneth cut my hair in hongyi's toilet just now.haha..then psy and charlene came to the toilet to hang out too..haha..his toilet became the newest cool hangout..haha.then psy wore charlene's denim shorts and he looked real real off and gay..we couldnt stop lauging man.then me and him were fiddling with wax on our hair..doing all real crap stuff la..then he helped me shampoo my hair cos the wax was gross..oh anyway, the haircut's, ie the trim, is quite good la..must give him some credit =)

it has officially been 5 days.and it has been 5 happy days with him..well hope things last long long..really dunno what the future will be like, but well, whatever it is, im just happy that ive got him now la..maybe thats all that matters..anyway im really tired and my eyes are red and dying from contacts..need to do work..sian..