cool.blackout = lighting candles around house, listening to receiver, using hp as light and trying to call 999 for the pple trapped in lift.

haha.was uploading pics when my com suddenly went black and lights went off.haha..quite fun.

hmm.uploaded more pics.more pics under [my photos], new albums [1ao1e fotos] and [more of 1ao1e]. heh sorry the newest album has so many pics of me though its a class one, cos i used to love eman's fone.haha..

hai econs today was terrible.really bad.i didnt even touch theories of firm and costs. drq looked like greek to me.essay was kinda screwed up.hai prepare for death and hell from retro babe.

heh screwed. =)

one and a half page for sea.the essay went sth like, burma was under british direct rule and malaya was under indirect rule and colonial administration was harsh. me and camy decided i'll get 2/25 for it.one for effort the other out of sympathy for me.well done.

five and a half pages for international.im banking on quantity, haha and zero quality.hai one word sums it all up.screwed.

me and lai and bing still went to watch around the world in 80 days at ps.funny lame shite.and i seriously cant get the song 'we like the moon' outta my head.anything associated with moon then bam! omg, its super crap and nonsense.

econs tmr.i think im gonna get screwed by retro babe.hai just die...

hoped everyone liked my post on the smiles.i really like it.i really like all those smiles =)

hmm went to ppcc yesterday, to shoot and study.haha..but end up playing badminton, shooting, talking cocka nd trying to study.haha but playing rubbish badminton was fun.playing badminton with a low ceiling is thrash.haha..

shot quite abit yesterday cos stayed at pp from 1 to about 9..hmm then went hongyi's house to watch swed-holland.ate lots in his kitchen while we all busy-ed around fixing up food.hong cooking espargo, bing&kenneth making garlic bread, lai making that yuvky instant noodles for himself, me&kenneth frying the dumplings, kayhian&lai spamming the spam (omg), bing frying prata for me =) haha then me and hongyi did dishes, thats the only only household chore i enjoy doing.haha..

then went to his room watched alot of really stoner crap.but southpark was good.damn funny.its so so spastic you can just die.all those spastic songs.and watched this vid clip of this jap guy playing guitar. all the mario sound effects.damn damn zai.

hmm then the match started.ate ice cream..omg the b&j was damn good.but only me and kenneth ate the b&j i think..hmm then swed-holland.draw nil-nil.won 6-5 penalty.another long loong match.hmm we bummed around before preparing to sleep..haha.kenneth was playing the bowling game with my fone before we sleep.and could never get a strike.haha loser..after he went to sleep, i was playing and i got it okayy =) haha..

hmm slept for about half an hour and then went home when everyone was still sleeping. haha fun night with kenneth, hongyi, kayhian, bing and lai..damn tired though.and ct's are tmr.gg huimin, heading towards retainee plan.well done.

heh tried to nap before waking up to watch the soccer matches later.hmm but couldnt get to sleep and started thinking about alot of things so decided to get up to blog..

hmm remembered about the movie win a date with tad hamilton. pete and rosalee grew up together and pete has been in love with her all his life.rosalee wins a date with tad (hes supposed to be a damn good looking star), and rosalee and tad "fell in love". hmm well, ending typical rosalee realises she has loved someone all her life without knowing it..

Pete: [to Tad] Like do you know she has six smiles? One when something really makes her laugh. One when she's making plans. One when she is laughing out of politeness. One when she is uncomfortable. One when she is making fun of herself. And one when... she's talking about her friends.

Rosalee: You have five smiles Pete. One when you think someone an idiot. One when you think someone's REALLY an idiot. One when you're singing to Barry White. One when you're getting all dressed up. And one when you're looking at me.

hmm..i was thinking how its really cool to remember all my friends by remembering the smile of theirs i like most..so i started recalling all those favourite smiles i like seeing..

my grandma's smile when shes talking about me to relatives (when shes not angry with me and talking about sth that shes proud of obviously).anna's yay-smile when someone accedes to her request.uni's cute pea-no/zero/slit eyes-cute smile.yvonne smiling at me when i do sth stupid when im all high and happy.tiffany's all teeth megawatt smile that makes me wanna take pics with her all the time.iris smiling when she hears a joke but she only smiles cos she doesnt laugh out loud. darling juelin's roar-out-loud laughter which is oh-so-infectious and her megawatt pose for cam smile.kenneth's smile when i intro him and when he tries to purposely smile.chuin's trigger-happy and all posed for the camera smile or her smile when she cant help it when she hears one of juelin's lame jokes.my favourite psy's super act cute but cute (acbc) smile!!lianne's really nice smile when she used to talk to me about zl.trier's smile when shes really happy and when she really means it.ohh! sandhya's cant-help-it but smile when jue goes overboard while crapping with her.the damn cute smile we made weixian do in an attempt to make him look less act cool in pictures during council speeches.joel's posing for pictures smile, that no teeth one.oh and when joel plays a trick on me as usual, that nasty trying-not-to-laugh at me smile.hon's smiles when shes laughing uncontrollably.and laa laughing at stupid lame lame jokes.firas's smile when he's excited and talking and eyes light up all at the same time.oh aaron smiling at me after hearing me diss him for hes posering around and his ego self.oh ec's no-choice but i gotta do it cos im mr nice smile.ben's smile when hes up to no good and thinking about sth spastic.lynette's big big smile with her so cute cheeks!tim's really gay smile and when he sees or talk about certain somebody..kevin smiles when he says sth witty and funny in class.michael's smile when we two bitch abot certain somebody.ben chen 's damn cute buddha smile!i really like seeing camy smile when shes nice and relaxed.bena smiling as she looking at and listen to someone else talk.oh haha kayhian's smile when hes laughing cos of pple like kenneth and bing and hong trying to trigger his bow.haha yay all these smiles.invaluable..

hmm went for archery again today.quite fun.and learning quite abit..getting better i guess.

haha..pple interested should visit this site http://fatitude.blogspot.com/ courtesy of dearest thng..haha..

hmm yepp good friends confirmed and authorised =) we'll stay that way yep?

gosh i need to study..haha..or i can just go shoot myself la..

some old quote i used to like : "never hold my hand if you're gonna break my heart."

saying goodbye to the old you and hi to a new found good friend.not new found actually, more like newly added, old identity removed, new one added..

such are memories that wont fade.

ill be =)..

hey..goodbye.

the big blue black on my arm is huge.but doesnt hurt that much so its okayy

met sandhya iris and smriti in town today to get joyce's present before we mrt to payalebar to cab to her house.hmm met with the joyce's bunch of people and crapped around.me and smriti ate so much of the birthday cake!! like 6 slices or sth.haha..hope you enjoyed your bday joyce!!!

hmm then we went to a macs near paya lebar and we 4 just talked in macs for awhile.ohh then san got shades, smriti bought earrings, iris bought a slingbag and i got a super cute vondutch bag!!yayy, havent bought myself anything in a real LONG time..

then me and san went to pool at mambo.was real nice time hanging out with sandhya..really made me miss those times we had together..ive all along clicked damn well with that girl..oh and her rebonded hair has made her damn damn damn chio!! seriously damn chio ms bollywood..haha had fun pooling with her =)

seems like i have been trying to make myself pretty busy, wanted to stay home today cos grandma nagging but decided to go out cos i know ill be thinking alot if i stayed home..but somehow it seems like my make-myself-occupied-and-busy solution doesnt really work..

jue/uni/anna: hey you girlies.thanks for askingg..hai im really fine if you ask me, physically at least..hmm like san told jue after they saw me in town that day after that few brief sentences i had with san, she thinks ive changed and became quieter..hmm told her today maybe its just these few days..yepp, some things have been bad and outta place, but i'll have to fine so dont you guys worry yeah? i missed you three alot.havent seen you guys muchh =(

haii.. =(

hmm today's temasek seminar thing was quite fun afterall..we went to the internal security department (isd) and its damn cool.thought it wouold be damn sian at first, but all the espionage and bomb and bugging stuff were damn cool..kinda had fun and lunch break was good free food.hehh..

then took a lift from hongyi to town to meet my cousins..went orchard library with them..oh! didnt manage to catch godsend yesterday..hmm it looks cool..hai but no money again already la..allowance kinda gone..

i wonder when will the rainbow appear.
when i can see your smile...again.

aww shucks..hai i dunno =(

haha jedi master still hungover ehh?

yayy finally started some studying today.everyone watch out! the slackest of the slackers have started her conquest of the books (though its probably a fruitless one)..

hmm lido with my dearest darling iris!!haha..tried studying sea but i really catch no ball.heh..so studied iris's international hist notes..hmm and did abit of catching up with my dear iris..

iris:hey thanks girlie! for being so patient in listening to me, thanks for being there for me today.i felt much better after telling you everything, and confessing about my cowardice. heh i dunno thanks k..i hope things get better.thanks for bein there..love you =)

hmm gonna watch godsend sneak preview at 11.05pm later.with my cousins.hope the show is nice.heh..

gotta go sch for some briefing tmr at 1pm..hai boring crap..

your love is like a river
peaceful and deep
your soul is like a secret
that i never could keep
when i look into your eyes
i know that its true
god must have spent
a little more time on you

argh.i dunno.i dunno.i dunno.

went for nice lunch at olio dome.long long shopping at zara.with my cousins.then went home and played mahjong with them until the opening of euro04.hmm won quite abit at mahjong.

the nice lunch and shopping and mahjong.all done hoping to take my minds off things.and off you.but no, they didnt help..i thought they would.

hai..i dunno.

wah im BURNT!!

heh went suntan with charlene on the boat while psy and daniel wakeboard.we two just lie there on the boat for the whole time.so shiok, but im totally burnt now..so pain and im gonna peel already. =(

arghh even my face is burnt!! hmm after suntanning, we took a cab from sembawang saf club to the mrt and went to ps to eat at cartel.haha..its so good its free food, i just keep eating the free bread!!haha..then went mambo to pool..

arghhh im all burnt!!me and charlene looked so ridiculous with our thighs being super super burnt.haha..i need aloe vera and more moisturiser..haha..

hmm yay can meet up with the glosse posse, iris & thng etc,anna and jue, laa & hon soon. =) all my darlings.

still havent touch school work yet =)

met kenneth at about nine sth at night and watched eternal sunshine of a spotless mind yesterday.its quite a nice show, deep meaning and the stupid stoner jokes..hmm then walked from lido to great world to meet my cousins to take a cab back home.

have i mentioned how i dislike holidays?

=(

[unforgetful you]
i never minded calling you a king
if that meant i could count on you
to give me everything
i never thought to ask you
i always thought you knew
it was never my intention to question you
you never minded calling me a child
well, i guess thats how i acted all the while
but you live through every tantrum
you see through every lie
though they seem to be more common
i just wanted to know why oh why
unforgetful you, unforgetful
you never minded giving us the stars and then
showing us how blind and unaware of you we are
you painted me a picture
you showed me how to see
but i just wont behold it unless it pertained to me.

[if you're gone]
i think ive already lost you
i think you're already gone
i think im finally scared now
you think im weak
i think you're wrong
i think you're already leaving
feels like your hand is on the door
i thought this place was an empire
now im relaxed i cant be sure
but i think you're so mean
and i think we should try
i think i can leave this in my life
i think im scared do i think too much?
i know its wrong its a problem im dealing
if you're gone
baby its time to come home
theres awful lot of breathing room
but i can hardly move
if you're gone
baby you need to come home
theres a little bit of something in me
and everything in you.
i bet you're hard to get over
i bet the moon just wont shine
i bet my hands i can stay here
i bet you read more than you mind
and i think you're so mean
i think we should try
i think i can leave this in my life
and i think im scared
do i talk too much?
i can't relate its a problem im facing
if you're gone...

bahh.2 days of real hard work finally over.worked at the warehouse metro sale at expo the past 2 days.selling shoes, taking stock, packing stuff etc..its like 13 hours of standing non stop.my feet and leg aching like mad!for the hundred plus bucks ill be getting..

yesterday last day of sale was nice nice! cos at about six plus, kenneth suddenly appeared in front of me!! haha.nice nice surprise..didnt know he would take like an hour to travel down to expo just to give me a nice surprise =) thanks thanks..yeah walked around in the pc fair which was so so freaking full then watched him eat bk for dinner..heh he bought me my favourite baby food too!!heh was kinda touched =) thanks =) yep then the supervisor came along so freddy called me back..haha, intro-ed kenneth to my colleagues and cousin..haha..all those kaypohs..

hmm wanna find a job in town, like in some restaurant or sth..hmm shall start finding soon..

chuin: sorry i cldnt come dear!! happy belated birthday darling. youve been a great friend to me, being there for me whenever i need someone..take care you darling.you know you rock and me really love you!!seeya arnd soon =)

anna: boinkies back ;)
uni: im sure.yeah yeah yeah buy presents for you.dont you love me so much for that? hehh
iris: IRIS!!!! i still have to return you so many things how could i have forgotten you? and youre the grandma's grandma you knoww!! no one can beat ya at nagging at me k..heh..I MISS YOU!!
thng: you're a monster la..common tests eh? how fun eh? i always knew you were special, but never knew it was that special =)
jedi master: thought you were gone once and for all, guess i was wrong

oh no, im so broke.i gotta pay so alot of people back..im sorry to all those who i owe money..ah sorry sorry sorry..

holidays be gone, i want school term back..

watched harry potter already, its quite nice.but somehow i still like the first one much better, maybe cos everything was a novelty.esp watching all the things that happen IN the sch, and cos this one's more based on outside hogwarts.

oh no shouldnt have eaten at seoul garden yesterday! wasted the money and you had to pay and seoul garden is how unhealthy.i couold feel like al the oil and everything..arghh..

slept till nearly one today.then took a nap again just now.thats my life at home when i dun go out =)

emma watson is so chio!!!!

hmm i kinda need a routine in my life, tts why i dsilike holidays..days w/o routine..though holidays are good for catching up on sleep and work..and i have damn alot of work to catch up on..shite i need some motivation to do real work..its not like im busy going out, its just im busy lazing around that ive not touched any work yet..shite im damn lazy!!

hmphh, i wanna buy so many things but im frigging broke!! my panasonic chio phone, wallet, going-school bag, new specs, some things for you and CLOTHES!! arghhh!! i need money!! maybe i should work part time like my cousin for awhile..like those few day jobs..just for the money, since im not busy mugging yet anywayy..yyea maybe i should =)

i dun wanna fight no more
i dunno what we are fighting for
and this loneliness in my heart
wont let me be apart from you
i dun wanna have to try
girl to live without you in my life
so im hoping we can start tonight
cos i dun wanna fight no more..