6 months and 2 days.. is the chapter going to close already?finally?

study hard.you.take care too.

promos in three days.

there's a reason why people don't stay where they are
sometimes love just ain't enough

watched soccer matches yesterday night.er i mean this morning.. crazy matches. 6-2 to man utd. yucks but rooney is good. 4-2 to real. haha yay i wanted real to win.

yay did pw written report from 5 sth till now.just sent to bing and candy, who were waiting eagerly in the library while sending me spas sms-es

slept a small bit. stomach flu is making me lose weight. talk about blessing in disguise.

im so bored and cooped up at home, but i cant go sch cos fear that i might spread virus to pple in sch then its real trouble cos i'll get blamed esp cos promos are coming

oh went to downstairs park with cousins to play candles etc yesterday night..had fun. lots of candles, yucky wax, lanterns, sparklers, lotsa pictures. OH! met tracy who was running at my house park track thingy. which means she lives super near me..weird i never knew. haha we were both quite alarmed to see each other.then said hi.

bleah, im hungry and tired..but i dont feel like eating. stomach flu makes all all appetite go away. booo..

argh i miss my friends. i feel like im in hibernation. listening to a few songs over and over again.

-I'll fix these broken things
-Repair your broken wings
-And make sure everything's alright
-(it's alright, it's alright)
-My pressure on your hips
-Sinking my fingertips
-Into every inch of you
-Cause I know that's what you want me to do
-This love has taken its toll on me
-She said goodbye too many times before
-Her heart is breaking in front of me
-And I have no choice, cause I won't say goodbye anymore

stomach flu =(

bought three pieces of sushi, ate one and already feel like throwing up. bleah no appetite at all.

i'll just go sleep..

couldnt sleep properly the whole night. there was this sharp pain in my stomach area that kept waking me up. until i couldnt take it anymore then i woke up my grandma up. so damn painful. it may be gastritis or maybe food poisoning, something wrong i ate..argh diarrhea and vomitting too. havent been sick like this for a long time.it suckss!!

gotta go see doctor on my own later, when the pain stops coming as much.. argh sucky day.

a full 510 day!! highlight of the day: went for pe after a loong time. even managed to get bena to run with me before pe, and i havent ran in SHIT long.like months?! haha, i was so amazed i could still run reasonably ok, as in stamina wise. then was walking abt how last time pe with ms poon, its always yonghui coming in first for running, then me and bena second together. we dont even bother trying to beat yonghui.haha simply cos you cant..pe was quite fun, we won in all three games of floorball, captains ball and handball. haha 1e rocks..

had a seriously weird dream, prob due to the stuff that me and bing were discussing and dissecting today. me and bing are good gp mates in a way. haha can discuss nonstop..but whatever we talked about today was cool, but freaky in a way. oh and me and bing topped the class for gp essay 40 outta 50, haha we tied this time round, i'll beat him in promos!

haha i need to studyyyy..

13 days more to promos. haha screwed..got the timetable today. was talking to candy on the train that day. now its just about getting promoted, to think me and weixian were talking about taking s papers for econs long time ago.. s papers?!? ECONS?!? haha.


tiffany and uni's really lame and stupid joke. why didnt oli go to JC? because oliGOpoly. ... ... this is what my lame friends come up with when they are seriously bored. =)


normanton park is really a nice place to study. everytime i go there, i think about the times me and anna spent there. wah seriously damn fun times..seems so long ago. the countless times we played bball there, and the stupid blair witch project crap. that day before netball camp and we were there decorating some stuff we bought for the camp. it was always go ikea or queensway after training or matches then go to anna's house. and all the times ive studied there with her..our baking cookies session and the bbq we had there..haha shitloads of fun we had..

sometimes i wished time would stop for us..haha as uni would say, things have been rather peachy..


=)


Kiss the rain
Whenever you need me
Kiss the rain
Whenever I'm gone too long
If your lips feel lonely and thirsty
Kiss the rain
And wait for the dawn
Keep in mind
We're under the same sky
And the night's
As empty for me as for you
If you feel
You can't wait till morning
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain


Hello...Do you miss me
I hear you say you do
But not the way I'm missing you

beauty queen of only eighteen

she had some trouble with herself

he was there to help her

she always belonged to someone else

i drove for miles and miles

and wound up at your door

i've had you so many times

but somehow i want more

i don't mind spending everyday

out on your corner in the pouring rain

look for the girl with the broken smile

ask her if she wants to stay awhile

and she will be loved

it was back to school after two days of absence. had many many exclamations from friends about my absence. kevin on my appearance before math lect: wahh today we have guest appearance by huimin. and also from my dearest like chuin, juelin, uni, anna,tiff. and not to mention my cool classmates. but sch was good i guess.

spent the morning doing pw. haha quite fun i guess.im quite glad in a way my group is full of slackers. we kinda dont impose stress and pressure on each other, we just go through all the shit together. candy, bing, weixian, me. haha. we rock at last min work. =)

oh today was catching up with old friends day. hai missed hanging out like good old days. the first three months of jc were kinda one of the happiest times i had. dont know but i seriously had alot alot of fun. cant really put a reason to it, but i knew i was definitely truly enjoying myself. talked alot to dear chuin and uni today. gave each other "brief summary of our updated lives" to quote uni. heh. guess many many things happened while i was mia in the sch hanging out scene. okay now its transformed to the sch mugging scene.

during math tutorial, sitting with lai and firas and weixian, with bing kevin in front. then stupid firas and xian were bullying and threatening me with the name my aunt's friend called me when we went coronation plaza last time. stupid firas wanted to burn my hair with lighter and they were just bullying me away.

went lt2 with tiff chuin and kevin after sch. to listen to kev and chuin play piano.kev was teaching chuin stuff while me and tiff were just fooling around and pretending we are dman knowledgeable. haha. kevin is damn damn good. the only ever thing i will praise him about is his music talents. ok and maybe his big mouth. but seriously, hes damn talented. he plays and sings with damn alot of emotions, its kinda touching i guess. kevin the religious talented good boy.

well, then me and chuin talked and talked and talked.then chuin went play badminton, so me and uni talked and talked and talked. yay hanging out in sch is good and nice i guess.with friends around, studying and slacking around at times..

section dedicated to tiffanyongshuting-tunaphish: youre the sweetest. thanks for the nice encourgament letter. and your attempted gifts of kit kat caramel chunky choc bars. two days in a row even though i wasnt there to receive them. i was reading chuin's purple notebook and was thinking how cute you are.with your lama crap and all those stuff you draw and write.haha youre a big part of my life.i heart you truckloads..

now for khnguni-limeangel: heyya dear.stop feeling dizzy and moodswingy. heh =) nice time talking to you and damn fun when we walking at lt2.5 haha havent had so much fun with you and laughed so much with you in such a looong time. we used to do that alot. haha thanks for being there for me all the time.youre the world's best pea and the world's bestest friend. me love you!

and finally for kohchuinying-rachel:hey you! you told me to CHIN UP and we both will go through all this shit TOGETHER alright? sorry i wasnt there for you yesterday k. we will both be strong girls and be happy for the sake of ourselves okayy? youve always been there for me, listening to me and all..youre such a darling =) i'll pray for both of us and ilu~~

been trying to catch up work ive missed out on. hai stupid promos coming so soon. sch these two days have been good. busy and tired but good. all my friends and just trying to have fun even though the stress of promos has set in already.

now on the road of recovery. away with all the pain inside..i just wanna keep myself busy so i wont think anymore. its like, a numbing process. been trying hard to picture a life completely without you, i know if i try hard enough, that picture may get fixated into my mind, then all would be easier..

argh i wanna hurry get all the essays overdue out of the way so i can really start studying.haii..

have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you have, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

random memories.

countless times we went kinokuniya. once, we were reading the guiness book of world records and laughing our asses off at all the crappy records inside. and usually we're just there to play, your chance to poke me and i cant really run away and scream. haha oh the countless times we see juelin and bapok, we even started the spot juelin and bapok game.haha =)

borders. how we were fighting over the miffy.there were two, but one was abit stained. haha and our countless times standing at the 111 bus stop near cine. it was there the first time i hear you talk seriously, and i can still remember how how amused i was.

the more special times: our first grocery shopping at cold storage at centrepoint, twas really happy and fun. watching passion after getting "bounced" by the ps movie ticket auntie countless times.

mm okay im quite bored...

xian asked me go sch study that day and tiff and uni asked me go sch to study today.hai but i feel i should clear my essays before i study. and well, maybe im still waiting for something at home everyday..havent been going anywhere, just staying home waiting for sth to happen.

bleah i think i have such damn good friends. well, no, i know i have damn good friends..my friends all love me alot, i feel so underserving sometimes.

yay just watched mean girls on my comp.FINALLY. it was er okay la..oh been having dreams closely related to what ive been exposed to or thinking about right before i sleep. like watched mean girls till 430am and went sleep so all my dreams were kinda mean girl-ish.so dumb..

its friday already, sch reopening already =(

till we meet again in my dreams.

mm havent been blogging much lately.

baked cookies quite a few times.haha dont know whats up with me and baking also.maybe cos it keeps my mind off stuff and makes me stay at home too.

met up with hon that day.my darling girl. my 11 year best best friend. the one in my life who knows almost everything about me and my family. we recalled how we already started telling each other our problems in primary one.back then we were really young and cute and fun. back then when we were best friends. and till now..

hai.suddenly felt how hard it is to find someone in your life who really understands. bleagh actually thats impossible considering how i dont even really know myself. im just living day by day, so it seems to pointless? sometimes..but its still damn good to know, nevertheless, that i have damn good friends around me. people who showed me what it is like to have people caring for me. people who gives me the reason to justify what everything is for..people say you live everything for yourself. but thats untrue. without all these people in life, what the hell do you wanna live for?

was really tired in the afternoon so took a long long nap after talking to kenneth on the phone. slept for quite long and had nice nice dreams that i could remember so vividly. i havent done this in such a long long time. nice nap and nice dreams. hai..

so dumb. i hate the way how my mood fluctuates so easily based on what happens with you..based on talking to you. bahh feels so.. vulnerable sometimes. you make or break me.. its like how sometimes its all hanging by on a thin thread.not controlled by myself =(

bleah studies look so so bleak. dont know if i can gather enough momentum and really get down to it. bahh sucks.. i wanna talk about something happier and more fun! argh but whatt?

hApPy hApPy hApPy BiRtHdAy!!! =)

i have lots of things bursting to say. but no words seem to be able to help me tell it all out.

i will do it your wayy..

=_ )

a crying SMILEy..

its one am.and im cooking brownies and cookies now.and my oven's not that big so gotta bake in batches.bleaghh, the cookies that are done are like not bad, but they are not like super nice..i need a better recipe!!! but baking's nice =) i'd learn baking cakes one day.then i'd be able to bake super nice and pretty cakes for people's birthday.

had sch then went to town to hunt for wenk and kk's present..reserved wenk's present already and kinda saw what i may buy for kenneth. =) argh a few things i really wanna buy for him but cant. hmm gonna purchase everything on sat..hmm then bing left for sch for his mum to pick him up there, then me went to meet kenneth.

spent a nice time talking to him outside wisma there. then there was this cool guy who came to borrow handphone.we were both quite paranoid about him running away with my phone. oh we talked about quite alot of stuff.and some really gross stuff! arghh yuck yuckk..and stupid kenneth kept talking about it! and when i went 7eleven with my cousin just now i also heard stuff similar to what we were talking about! talk about coincidence!

spent some nice long time having long talks with some people today.never knew a certain someone was like that..actually two people..its like, its only when you really talk to them and knew them, then you see the true side of people..yeah but was nice talking to people =)

yay back to baking cookies.and brownies later..bleaghh tonight no need sleep already la..

its more than the words you say..i love you..