i finally figured out whats wrong with my life these few days..i felt sth was missing and sth was wrong so i went on to search for the cause of worry..it always happens to me i think..not the first time already at least..i need more more time with my girlfriends..and all my other close friends..and not just devote all my time to one person or one area of my life..i need to spend my time in a more balanced way..anyway too much of sth sweet is no good..like how too much of chocs is bad for health..heh..i realised i have been missing out on alot of things..it seems like i can never really get the best of both worlds..and in my case, the best of many worlds..i can only do this-or-that..and never this-and-that..i need to learn..and get back my more happy life i had previously..so its learn to have this-and-that-and-that time..