watched spartan today..didnt heed layming's advice..i should have..a stupid plot with stupid ending and no hot cast..and i was soooo freaking cold that my little fingers were numb..and kenneth just laughed at me..idiot..and after dinner at scotts we were checking out the fone shop..and he started playing football on the n-gage..and he scored quite easily.haha..pro..haha..he says hes gonna get it and be obssessed with it..

went back to old home today.i miss it so much..i miss my aunt whos as good as saying shes my mum..i really miss everything and my old life..i have tried to block out everything and tried not to feel anything about the whole episode..but when i talked to her today.i realised how much i miss everything..

sometimes i wish i can just have a normal average family..a real family..a complete one..it feels even more incomplete ever since i moved out..

i hate how i've changed to become so unfeeling and cynical..i used to be this nice girl who liked to cry over movies and silly tv shows..i used to like being the protected little one..and the one who likes to get daddy's attention and be the one he teased most constantly..i've lost the sentimental and soft side of me..

on a lighter note, somethings sweet going on..in school..=) i shant mention more..