dont leave me alone, alone with silent moments that allow my mind to wander. dont give it the chance and the time to think freely. cos my mind wanders and then rests on the same old recurring stuff. [the first times] the first time we met, the first time we held hands, the first time we really looked into each others eyes, the first kiss we had. pretty much over you and pretty much over things between us, but memories haunt endlessly. not cause i miss you so, or i want you back. but cause fond memories would come back to me, no matter what happens. the times when i know i have someone i can totally rely on, someone who can instantly bring a smile to my face without even trying to. the times i spent thinking about what i can do for you and the times i spent daydreaming about you. the touch of your hand, the tricks you play on me, the nights we spent together, the last kiss we had even after we broke up, the times we simply just hang out enjoying each other's presence, the movies we watched together, the countless times we sat on each other =). such beautiful memories flood my mind which somehow become memories which are hurting.hurts to recall them and realise the one whom i used to be close to isnt there anymore. you never physically walked away, but i can picture your back, becoming smaller and smaller as you walk away from me. i dont want us to get together again, but such memories do hurt.but thanks for them anyway. i dont expect things to be much much better cos we cant exactly be close without feeling something for each other. we've tried to maintain that, which only led to a disaster. but anyhow, i still love you, like how a friend would love another..i'll pray everynight, for God to keep you safe and happy, and that one day, we can smile and play with each other comfortably and rubbishly sit on each other, knowing in our hearts that we're just normal good friends who care for each other..

bleah that sounds so emotionally tacky and rubbish. argh just had to get things out at the moment, and even though its only directed at one person..bahh, nvm..sorry for my ramblingg..sch today was alright, bing and i blue slipped during pw. then went down to pp to eat and went to cedar to shoot in mr tang's car..didnt get to shoot much today, went back to eat at pp then went hong's house then to dm to get hong's arrows fletched.. bleah 4 people in hong's car backseat equals huimin must sacrifice. had to sit on ken but at least his quads are super super strong. my full weight throughout the long journey from pp to hong's house then to dm again and his legs are perfectly fine..salute salute..hmm came home and practised routine, can remember the whole routine better now.finally got chance to prac at home..hmm oh it was my aunt's birthday today, got home in time just to see them cutting the cake and distributing..my timing is damn good.second time exactly the same situation..haha..rocks.. bahh was supposed to meet laa and hon for dinner date tonight but hon had emergency cropped up..bleahh.miss those two girls to bits..