hrm. everything seems so blue these days. and everyone seem to be in terrible moods these days. almost everyone. =(
i went with every intention to give up. to tell you, thats it, im gonna disappear from your life now and forever. if my presence causes you so much pain. seeing you like that hurts me more than anything. yeah i did succeed walking away at first. but why the beckoning back to wipe my tears and bringing me back to your arms? to make me feel better? hell yeah i did feel better. to find that familiar smell again, and to find myself in those arms again. but that wont help anything. it just complicated things. we should just heck everything and let things all come to an end, and just let me walk away and disappear from your life. everytime you do this, everytime i end up in your arms, i think about the possibilities. the maybes. of reviving the heaven we used to share. but its impossible.. argh i dunno what i want, but only thing im sure is, i want you to be ok again.
went to hc carnival.damn crowded and things got sold out pretty quickly. stupid wenkai is so evil. the first thing he does when he sees me, even before i can say hi is to bully me. kept spraying water on me with his water gun. stupid wenkai. bullys me like hell! then me and bing went to pp with intention to shoot but the cc wasnt available. so we mrt down to tampines to meet ken and monica. had nice long talks with bing. bing: thanks for being there to listen to me and making me feel better alright? i hope you'd worry less about me =) well, we had dinner at cafe cartel. they didnt allow me not to eat so had pasta. hmm diet is kinda working already. with my those days i ate less, and these few days of almost not eating much. now i just need to go run regularly. and situps. hmm then went to starbucks after dinner at cartel. to talk and all.. bleah things have been pretty complicated. and ive been causing so much unhappiness to many people. without even meaning to. i feel bad. but since i didnt mean to do it, it seems like i cant really do anything about it.
going to my baby cousin's birthday later. then going for cheerleading if i have time. then watching woman in black at singapore repertory theatre later with the class.
i went with every intention to give up. to tell you, thats it, im gonna disappear from your life now and forever. if my presence causes you so much pain. seeing you like that hurts me more than anything. yeah i did succeed walking away at first. but why the beckoning back to wipe my tears and bringing me back to your arms? to make me feel better? hell yeah i did feel better. to find that familiar smell again, and to find myself in those arms again. but that wont help anything. it just complicated things. we should just heck everything and let things all come to an end, and just let me walk away and disappear from your life. everytime you do this, everytime i end up in your arms, i think about the possibilities. the maybes. of reviving the heaven we used to share. but its impossible.. argh i dunno what i want, but only thing im sure is, i want you to be ok again.
went to hc carnival.damn crowded and things got sold out pretty quickly. stupid wenkai is so evil. the first thing he does when he sees me, even before i can say hi is to bully me. kept spraying water on me with his water gun. stupid wenkai. bullys me like hell! then me and bing went to pp with intention to shoot but the cc wasnt available. so we mrt down to tampines to meet ken and monica. had nice long talks with bing. bing: thanks for being there to listen to me and making me feel better alright? i hope you'd worry less about me =) well, we had dinner at cafe cartel. they didnt allow me not to eat so had pasta. hmm diet is kinda working already. with my those days i ate less, and these few days of almost not eating much. now i just need to go run regularly. and situps. hmm then went to starbucks after dinner at cartel. to talk and all.. bleah things have been pretty complicated. and ive been causing so much unhappiness to many people. without even meaning to. i feel bad. but since i didnt mean to do it, it seems like i cant really do anything about it.
going to my baby cousin's birthday later. then going for cheerleading if i have time. then watching woman in black at singapore repertory theatre later with the class.
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