i feel like im gonna crumble already. its like theres this loose screw holding me together, and one slight knock, and i'll be on the ground, all dismantled and dust going up.

its been cheer cheer everyday.and shooting.my shoulder muscles are so tensed up and my neck was aching. thankfully i had nice nice massage rub from ken and bing.feeling better.tmr cheer from 11-7.our last last prac!! pysche UP!

then right after cheerleading comp is intersch archery. bleagh i havent gotten down to intense focussing and trng which is essential before a comp.bleagh so screwed..

there are so many things i wanna say but i dont think i can. i really wanna watch the notebook after the good recommendations from everyone. but i really dunno if its a good time to watch such a show at this time. havent caught a show in eons..

i promised bing this would be the last time, i ever cry for you. i dunno if that will happen, but i am going to try. i told bing ill be able to do it, to let go of everything in a heartless manner since we're both like that. i dunno if that'll happen, but im really gonna try. i dunno why its so shit hard to let go this time, maybe its cos of our indecisiveness, maybe its just bad timing, or maybe, its cos of how much you actually mean to me. but im so tired alreadyy.and it sucks to affect other people too cos of my moods too.

ec went with me to listen to jay's new cd in heeren today.some songs are damn damn nice!! my usual favourite stuff, the slower songs.bleaghh, jay rocks.and i still dunno if i should go watch notebook.