went for cousin's birthday party today. couldnt leave as soon as ecpected for cheerleading so had to miss it. realised how how much i missed my baby cousin.my grandma used to take care of her.. shes damn damn cute. bleagh really missed her. she still can remember my grandma and me, and sticks to us alot.which was really nice to know.

no time to go for cheerleading so my big cousin sent me to clarke quay mrt.met up with kayhian bing and mike and cabbed down to singapore repertory theatre for woman in black. was nearly late. after intermission, went to sit at the first floor with the girls.lynette damn cute with her dress and her hair! nic camy bena all in skirts.i love the girls =) haha its a damn good play. damn chilling it is. but as usual i wasnt really freaked out. just shocked at times.yea but its good.then went to cartel to eat. had a good meal with classmates. as usual, i love ao1e. =) then walked from mohammed sultan to esplanade. on the way with many distractions. nice diversions though. firstly it was the bungee thingy at clarke quay. happened to see one of the ride going up, so we the girls screamed along with the pple riding it.i really wanna try it, but its seriously overpriced. then it was the fireworks. we just stood in the middle of the road, watching the fireworks which were real pretty pretty. just stood there drinking bottled bacardi and enjoying those nice fireworks. my favourite - the ones which were pink and white, which resembled a orchid. damn chio.oh classic moments by mike, who left us before we saw fireworks, so called kayhian when he heard those loud noises by the fireworks: is singapore under attack?

so we reached esplanade.and there was a shit load of pple.then ken came over to meet us. but esplanade was seriously too crowded. so the girls left, me bing kayhian ken went pacific coffee co to talk and chat. had caramel steamed milk which was damn nice. it tasted like milk with cereal, just without the cereal. heh. shit i need to stop eating. been eating more these days.yesterday and today.

i think i should tire myself out and let more things occupy my time and leave no time for me to think at all. but realised no matter how i try now,even though i have resolved to walk away from you, nothing changes the fact that i miss you. whenever i have the time, i try to think about where you are, imagine what you are doing and about the latest time we met. i think you still have a huge place in my heart and i still miss you, but i know im ready to move on. does that make sense? bleah, can things stop complicating my life. like other things and other people that are happening now..argh i really dunno how things came to be like this. even things that i predicted that would happen in future are making my life worse. i wish i could just take a nice walk or sit on the beach or just feel the breeze against my face or just lie down on my back watching stars, without thinking about you, without worrying about anything.