i cant.i just cant do it. how many things have i resolved to just turn and walk away and leave you to be? and its not that i cant get over it and get over you. its not that i still love you so much and i still want to be with you. i cant i cant i cant i cant cos of what you're doing to yourself. msged you during math lect, then you called me after sch. i was so so scared. of what you might do. you seriously scared me.i thought you were going to explode or sth bad would happen to you. thats why i had to agree to see you again. i know its no point to see you and talk. thats why i really didnt want to anymore. but i was damn scared. i cant la okayy..
stood at the roadside talking for 3 hours. till my weak knee started to become soft and my stomach started hurting. whats the point of talking every time if all you want is ask me to give up. beg me to give up? im really sick of crying non stop.and im really sick of seeing you so tortured. until the point i really couldnt take it anymore yesterday..that i just told you i would consider it. but right after it i know i cant. i know i cant. your perfect solution= quit, get over it, be with you happily ever after. reality= quit, get over the fact of quitting, but never ever will get over the fact you said you love me and you were the one who made me give up what i want to do. im really starting to think. are all these that youve said real? my brain's fried. my eyes hurt. i dont think i can think anymore.
what else is there to do? i let myself suffer and not just walk away from you and lead my own life, happier than this, cos i really believed that together we can work out something that involves both of us shooting together happily and being together again..even if we dont get together again, but just shooting happily. ive always believed that. but im getting crushed by you, by how you come to every talk wanting me to quit, persuading me to quit. thats all there is in your mind. then what for talk? then what for? for you to achieve your aim of asking me to quit? thats probably it for you. if thats the case, i just feel like.. argh.. i dunno..
you keep saying you dont wanna worry your friends and parents anymore. and so you think no one's worried about me? everyone dont want me to quit, they'll prob kill you if you make me. everyone is damn worried about me going to school and everything..or rather, me not going to school. every morning i wake up feeling like crap. i cant do anything anymore.. and for you, you live a life like hell as long as i never agree to it.and once i say i will think about it, life is okayfor you once again. it is that simple for you.
argh i know you dont mean it.i know what kind of person you actually are. i know you're not like that. i know i know. when will this end? when?
stood at the roadside talking for 3 hours. till my weak knee started to become soft and my stomach started hurting. whats the point of talking every time if all you want is ask me to give up. beg me to give up? im really sick of crying non stop.and im really sick of seeing you so tortured. until the point i really couldnt take it anymore yesterday..that i just told you i would consider it. but right after it i know i cant. i know i cant. your perfect solution= quit, get over it, be with you happily ever after. reality= quit, get over the fact of quitting, but never ever will get over the fact you said you love me and you were the one who made me give up what i want to do. im really starting to think. are all these that youve said real? my brain's fried. my eyes hurt. i dont think i can think anymore.
what else is there to do? i let myself suffer and not just walk away from you and lead my own life, happier than this, cos i really believed that together we can work out something that involves both of us shooting together happily and being together again..even if we dont get together again, but just shooting happily. ive always believed that. but im getting crushed by you, by how you come to every talk wanting me to quit, persuading me to quit. thats all there is in your mind. then what for talk? then what for? for you to achieve your aim of asking me to quit? thats probably it for you. if thats the case, i just feel like.. argh.. i dunno..
you keep saying you dont wanna worry your friends and parents anymore. and so you think no one's worried about me? everyone dont want me to quit, they'll prob kill you if you make me. everyone is damn worried about me going to school and everything..or rather, me not going to school. every morning i wake up feeling like crap. i cant do anything anymore.. and for you, you live a life like hell as long as i never agree to it.and once i say i will think about it, life is okayfor you once again. it is that simple for you.
argh i know you dont mean it.i know what kind of person you actually are. i know you're not like that. i know i know. when will this end? when?
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home