memories. all i can think about most now are scenes of you and me. picture perfect i call it.. everywhere i go everything i see reminds me of everything we did together, every word you said to me. yes no matter what, they are picture perfect to me. using selective memory, i only remember the best times we've had. i want to choose to forget the past few weeks of living hell. so when i look back, i smile.. picture perfect

think i'll record down memories that come to me randomly. like sitting at esplanade by the river, i remember that was the place you told me about traingle nebula. that was where you told me the story of the chinese tourists with the indians and the europeans when i was fantasizing about the neon lights falling on the river surface. the spinning thing we were playing. how you thought the lion made with the calendar paper concept was damn cool. how i buy my chewy fudge cookie. you think i was having fun hanging out, but im having fun thinking of you. smiling at the times we shared, laughing at the stupid things we did, then occasionally sighing cos i miss you and thinking why cant things turn out a different way since we both want it so much. now you're everywhere. =)

random memory.esplanade rooftop. that day you bought a bag of gummies for me.and we were having this gummy sweets competition i think..to see who picks the better one to eat. the wind was nice i remember..heh oh i whined about wanting the big balls of lanterns of lights. you said you would take it for me.haha.. okay its just random memories la k..oh remember how i hate to go to libraries with you cos you'd start poking me and attacking me and i couldnt scream or squeal cos we are in the library. oh and the original pinkshirtgame that we started. some things i'll never forget.

i'll still be here, hanging around like what monica said. maybe..just maybe one day, we'd be happy together again. i really mean what i wrote in the last sentence of the letter..hai but for now, we will both concentrate on getting better ok? you know those days were hell, i know you dont want me to feel like i did ever again.and neither do i want you to k? so we're both going to get better alright?

now i really have to put in extra extra double double effort i catching up in school. i want to put my life back onto tracks again. i know pple in sch have been damn worried about my sch work and everything. even weixian's like asking me to study and saying how he has studied so much already. yeah i now have to work like super damn hard,much more than ever.hahah..only say dunno how to do one la..what great motivation do i have to count on? hai, but i'll try la k? at least start going school and paying attention as usual.